Outburst of feelings

❤ A long time ago, I was a young boy When people used to play with me as a soft toy After they got bored, they threw me as trash And that was the moment all my illusions started to crash. I used to give people all I had, But later I realized, they made my life simply bad; I gave them so much love that there wasn’t anything left, Of all goodness my soul remained bereft. I gave them my soul, my body and my mind That for my own ceased to be loving and kind; I thought only about them, they occupied my head, But how they fiddled with it, was something that was never said. I called it friendship whilst they made me go through hell, But still I hid my scars, and told them that everything was well; And in return of my care, I only got cuts, bruises and scars, And things that compelled me to cry for innumerable hours. They made those unblockable holes in my boat, To fulfill their needs, I was but a mere scapegoat; Back then, I was too gullible and naï

I will give you nothing apart from my love and care, I will fight every battle for you if you dare. I'll give you a hundred messages in a single stare, In those little precious moments which we'll share. I may not be able to give you luxuries, silver or gold, But we'll together make a story that forever will be told. In my arms you'll feel like fire, even when outside it'll snow, But when we'll both be together, our souls will glow. With me, I promise you will feel like home, Back there in the meadows, together we'll roam. Love will bloom like roses, in our combined soul, When we will have each other as a whole. Not time, but all these memories will count, As the night descends, our hearts will mount. On the galloping horses of love in the stillness of the night, Not the moon, but our love to make our moments shine bright. As my fingers run through your cascading long hair, We both will make a timeless pair.

I still remember how it all started five years ago, I had never imagined our bond shattering in a single blow; You left me in a no-man zone, Though you were with me, I always felt alone. I may forgive you but it won't be like before, 'Coz of those misunderstandings which we chose to ignore; For the world I had, but there wasn't anything I could own, Though you were with me, I always felt alone. You never realised, to me you mattered the most, I was a directionless sail, And you were a guiding coast; Even to you the consequences were not unknown, Though you were with me, I always felt alone. How could you just turn your face away? I had always thought that despite everything, you would stay; Those old chats, those captures on my phone, Though you were with me, I always felt alone. You made me feel always left out, Those misunderstandings grew from doubt; It was your ego that flowed ruthlessly in  your tone, Though you were with me, I always felt alone