Familiar with my Mind

Nothing hurt like the lies that you told

Not grudges, but memories I only hold

You turned me into a monster that never be tamed

For that, not just you, even I’m to be blamed

With nothing to live for and nothing to lose

I have two options- life and death, and the latter one I choose

I wished it was a storm in a teacup

I wish it was a nightmare from which I could wake up

I tried hurting you but I ended up hurting myself instead

With those fake truth that I once had in my head

Those fake assumptions with so called comforting lies

It took years to be born, our friendship now dies

I even don't know when did I go so wrong

That you had to hide those things from me, for so long

I thought I knew you pretty well

 But after the breakdown of my illusion, it hurts me like hell

I don’t know why you chose to hide

 I don’t know why you thought me to be worthless and lied

But no need for pity, I’m always fine

The only change is that I lost someone, whom I thought was mine